A quote from a magnet in my mom’s kitchen continues to go through my mind. My mom has a lot of magnets (almost the full surface of her fridge is taken up) so it’s odd that this one stands out. I honestly can’t think of any other magnet on her fridge.
“If you’re going through hell, keep going.” – Winston Churchill
It’s been going through my mind for a month or two and it couldn’t be more fitting for how I feel in life right now. You wouldn’t know it if you saw me but I’ve been more depressed recently than I can ever remember. I’ve been doing a lot to focus on the positives of what I’m going through and that only good will come. It would be so easy for me to become complacent with how my life is and that would continue the downward spiral. It’s a lot of work to break the habits and keep pushing through. It’s exhausting.
This quote has been exactly what I need to remember that things will get better as long as I keep pushing and working towards making improvements. As most people do, I’ve had to make really tough decisions recently which included cutting friends I love dearly out of my life because of the negativity and pain they brought into it. Doing this has left me very alone in a city I’ve barely lived in. It’s hard not to fall into old habits and keep myself accountable when it’s only me. Before, there would be people around me to do the work of my self-discipline. Sometimes I wonder how so many people don’t see the sadness I walk around with daily. Maybe I’m a good actor? Definitely not! Haha. Maybe because I see the light at the end of the tunnel?
Another thing that helps me get through is remembering that I’m not alone in this journey. There are others out there going through similar lows as me, having to juggle responsibilities, and learn how to love themselves again. I’ve been so fortunate that I’ve been given the flexibility to take time to focus on my health by working from home. Even though the process took time (downside to large companies), it feels great to be supported by those around me and above me at work. I only hope that by opening up about what I’m going through will encourage others to open up so companies without this level of support and flexibility can learn the importance of having it.
And if you’re going through a tough time, I hope this is a friendly reminder that you’re not alone and things will get better.